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12:34am 04/10/2005
  i dont konw why shes so annoying now.
she becamse some annoying bitch.
no one knows why tho.
theres no reason to laugh.
it isnt a funny topic to anyone else.
who said they missed who?
oh ya... that was me...
who cried cause someone was mean to them.
thats right... that was me.
and yes... it was you who was mean.
and writing that letter...
the one that made you laugh.
made me cry cause i was mean to the girl i used to love.
who always had to be the one to say we werent best friends.
yup... yet again. that was you.
kepts tearing me apart for months
and me... wanting some form of relationship with you...
was a big mistake on my part.
cause all you do is bring me down now.
and i dont know why you do it either.
i just dont know why...
i thought the relationship we once had could have meant something to you...
but i guess it didnt.
cause if it did...
maybe you would be a little less mean and be more nice.

it doesnt matter now.
i am happy.
i am in love.
i have daniel.
and thats all i really need.

peace out all of you....
i wont be back.		  
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02:45pm 29/09/2005
 
mood: satisfied
i love him.
:]
most defenitly.		  
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11:02pm 28/09/2005
 
mood: LOinVE
music: Daniel.
in school... i burn parts of my hands constantly.
stupid curling irons...
stupid figure 6s...
stupid figure 8s.
those are the worst... but turn out way better than 6s.
my teacher said not many schools teach all the ways to use the curling iron.
like the figure 8 way...
its cool to know im learning more than at other schools.

Daniel... oh daniel. you are my world. you are everything to me. I cant believe what Ive found in you. Ive found peace, happiness, joy, excitment, love. love love love. just everything. love is the most amazing thing in the whold wide world. I love him. we love eachother. we were made for eachother. its so clear. clear to the whole wide world now. you all should know that by now... if you really saw us... and just how happy we are all the time. and how in love we actually are. you all would know what love is. and what love really looks like.
God, I really and truely love him with all my heart. its great.

i love him.		  
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06:28pm 24/09/2005
 
mood: accomplished
music: the fan
being happy at all hours of the day.

its a great feeling.

tomorrow I have a hair show thing...
maybe it will be fun?
ive always wanted to go to one.
I just didnt want to have to be away from my danielbug.
:[. ill miss him most defenitly.
so ya... all my days are awesome.
living at home sometimes is a drag...
but Daniel makes everything worth while.

cosmetology:
hard core facial madness.
just learned how to pluck them brows.
hair cutting is my favorite.
my head is half cut. haha. better finish that sometime.
paul likes to call her suzie.
umm... using saving cream as hair dye still.
bleached the back of the dolls head.
manicures are lame.
and perms stink real bad.

plus... my school sucks. hehe.
yup. our teacher never comes ontime.
we miss about a half hour to an hour of the day everyday.
which bites big time.
and i will either graduate this summer ('06) or next summer ('07)
depends on what is in store for me.

I saw morman boys at school.
at the bus stop.
talking to some girl.
i laughed.
i remember when i hollered at some boys onetime.
hahaha. more like yelled.

God help us all:
i think the hurricans should stop now.
too many... too many people hurt. too much lost.
nature can be a "b" if ya konw what i mean.

well... that is all.
Daniel is amazing.
I love him so much.
we are THE happiest couple in the world.
its great!		  
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11:56am 14/09/2005
  I am happy. I am so happy. ugh... its great.
I am truely the luckiest girl who has ever lived.
its like... i wish the world could experience this.
but im afraid that its only for us.
and it slightly saddens me kinda.
cause its the most amazing feeling in the world.
to never feel alone... to never feel pressure.
to never feel pain... to never feel saddness anymore.
to know i am happy for the rest of my life.
and not to worry about anything anymore.
I am so happy. I am so in love.

we are in love... WE ARE IN LOVE! :] I never would of thought how this would feel either. I drempt about it... i thought about it. i wanted it so much... but this. i would never of been able to think of this. the only thing that is going to make it better is when we get married. man... marraige.

i was talking to this girl in my beauty school class. oh man... its like she tells my story. its really wonderful. to find someone who actually know what its like to be... well in my shoes. or me in hers. just everything... except for the morman family part... but she isnt anymore. but her family is... but anyhow... its great. we talk alot kinda now. and its like... shes in love. and she was describing it. shes been dating this guy for 4 years and she was describing how it feels. and i got goosebumps... cause i know. i just understood her so well. its great... really. i get to talk about love. and the things we do... when im not with daniel. i get to still think about it. and talk about it. and still feel him. ugh... its great.

my world revolves around him. and that is the one thing that makes me happy.
i dont care about anything else... not a single thing.
just you and me... thats all. my love. my one and only. my love.		  
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06:27pm 09/09/2005
  it sucks when you try and post something on someones journal.
and it goes "sorry... friends only"
annoying.
or as i like to say
"how rude"


humm... what else.
got a call from cas.
i think it was an accident.
but none the less... still got a call.



my family... botheres me sometimes.
but hey... i deal with it.
soon... well someday. ill be gone.
married... happy for the rest of my life.
i pray i get into fulltime in october... or i will kill someone.

i love daniel.
that is all for now.		  
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12:23am 06/09/2005
  i love him.

my boyfriends better than yours.
sorry... but its true.		  
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10:04am 20/08/2005
 
mood: anxious
music: its my party and Ill cry if i want to...

Today is my birthday.
and eachtime i write birthday on the computer.
i first type it britheday for some reason.
anywho....
I am now... 20 years old.
no londer a teenager.
wow... wowzers.

Yesterday Daniel gave me:
A package (because I said I had never gotten a package before and always wanted one)
which was filled with:

  • An Eeyore pillow thats really squishy.
  • A little eeyore wind up thing with an "E" hat on.
  • An eeyore bag.
  • two eeyore mugs
  • a loto ticket (because i had said i had never had one of those either... but now i have!)
  • and three of those scratch and win loto things.

Then... to my suprise. in his room....
which I didnt notice right away until he looked in the direction in a (look this way) kinda way.
I saw a hamster cage. OMG OMG
I got so excited. I said "DID YOU REALLY!"
and and... he did.
his name is squeakee. I named him.
he is a russian dwarf hamster.
the littlest thing you will ever see.
Daniel says he was the smallest one there...
and the most playful.
we put him in the ball and watching him roll around.
I love him. its so great. SQUEAKEE!!!!!
Once I have time and bring a digi camera with me...
Ill show you all what he looks like exactly.

what else... my family bought us Knotts Berry Farm Passes for our birthdays.

its jenelles birthday too... so wish her a good one.
and its jaymee lopez birthday too... so if you konw her... make sure to do the same.

  
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09:15am 17/08/2005
  so whats happened as of late.
umm... My family bought daniel and I knotts berry farm passes.
so we go there quite often now.
we like going on the rides...
and eating funnel cakes.
it turns out if you make sure to keep your head back on the rides that wip around...
they can be quite fun and not painful at all.
anywho.....
I dyed my hair again... just how daniel wanted me to.
in a way i would never of thought Id like it ever.
but i do. blond on top brown on bottom,
very trendy... and i like it.
it was quite a shock at first...
but now i like it. might make the blonde a little less... white. but maybe not.
my birthday is comming up. so is jenelles and other people i know.
I go back to school on aug 22.
I will hopefully get into the full time class.
i was secretly going to drop out and go to gwc but...
now that cas and i are no longer best friends...
that plan went out the window.
it was going to be a suprise. for her and for daniel.
oh well... I would of had to find the money for the kit anyhow.
what else what else...
Daniel and I have been togehter for 6 months now. and oh how fun it is. haha.
I made him a scap book of... well me. and he loves it.
he gave me a card, flowers, and a picture he drew of eeyore.
he has something big planed for my birthday... i dont know what it is.
well... thats about it.
I love you daniel. you make my life amazingly better everyday.

:]		  
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10:16am 05/08/2005
  its official...
"click click... deleted"
officially deleted.

oh well.

who cares... right?











i love you daniel.		  
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01:23pm 02/08/2005
  yesterday i got a little sad.
and cried a little bit.
its a sad thing... not knowing you lost something.
and then realizing you only have one thing left.

I depend on Daniel for my sanity.
without him... I would die. no joke.
he is everything... my everything.

he is my best friend.
he is the love of my life.
he is the air i breath.
he is my everything.

on a second note...
we went and looked at engagement rings.
it was alot of fun actually.
just to look at what i would want.
not that its happening right away but...
it was fun anyhow.
so much fun actually.
i tried on rings and more rings and more more more rings.
its a great feeling.
being loved.... and trying on rings to signify that love.

I honestly cant wait.
and i know... i hear it all the time
"take your time jamie"
and we are... we love eachother like you wouldnt believe.
and we dont care about sex. screw sex.
that isnt why we want to be married.
it isnt the holy bound that comes with it.
its being in his arms all my life.
its waking up with him next to me.
its falling asleep in his arms.
its cuddling on the couch.
its being in love forever.
its his eyes.
its how he completes me.
its how he is my missing puzzle peice.
its love.
(and maybe its the wedding dress and ring a little bit. hahaha jk)
really... its love.
i just love him.
and i cant wait to be with him forever.		  
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01:29am 20/07/2005
 

COSMETOGLOGY.... HECK YESSSS!

ya ya ya ya... F C Cosmetology is RIGHT!!!

Im a TRENDSETTER... you know it!

its alot of fun... :]


I am crazy...

I am in love...

I am happy. :]

 
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11:45am 19/07/2005
  sorry about yesterdays journal post.
I was all hostile.

woman = period = moody = emotional wreck





































I love Daniel. :]		  
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07:12pm 18/07/2005
  its kinda funny... thats its always my fault.
hahaha i am truely amused by it.

I love Daniel...
I want to spend my time with Daniel.
its not like we cancel plans to be together.
our plans are together.
we have nothing else to do.
we have school... and eachother.
and my family has decided... its not good.
and i decided... i could care less.
we know everysecond may not be together.
but the time left on this earth isnt enough.
sorry that we like to take complete advantage of that.
we arent going to change that.
cause im finally in that happy place i have always wanted.
and i am not going to let go of it.
I wouldnt change a thing. not a thing.
ya... i know I've changed.
ya... I know some people things its for the worst.
and sadly... they dont know.
but they are completely wrong... couldnt be farther away from the truth.

i have school today... but i didnt go.
cramp ohhhhh boy. cramps suck.
i feel ok now but... i cant go anyway.
cause it doesnt matter... it wont count.
my teacher called me to make sure i was ok.
shes so nice and sweet. i love her.

so... now i am the most emotional person in the world.
i cry constantly haha. and its like for no reason.
expecially now that i am on my period.
the water works are just going and going haha.
this is what happened:
I went to the petstore. for no reason.
and they had little russian dwarf hamsters.
OMG they are the cutest little things ive ever seen.
and i needed on. i wanted one so bad.
and i looked at everything i would need.
and i knew i wanted it... and knew i could have it.
well... i was wrong.
my mom is alergic and did has a fit about rodents.
so it didnt happen...
and what did i do?
i balled... BALLED.
ive become an emotional period girl.
i dont get mad... i dont throw fits.
i just cry when the littlest thing happens.
its funny to me. very funny.

so now... I am OFFICALLY done with being to blame for everything.
i know that has nothing to do with anything...
but its how i feel.
im a big girl... i make decisions. and im not the onlyone.
I dont shut out my friends and family.
I dont see my phone rining off the hook.
I dont see my friends coming to me to hang out.
i dont see my family planning things and me not attending to them.
but really... "its me" who is always doing something.
ya... if you want to see it that way. sure.
but just cause "you" whoever that is... didnt call to hang out.
and I... was out with daniel instead of being home doing nothing.
heaven forbid that would happen....
and it makes it so im doing something wrong?
occupying the time that no one calls me to hang out.
which yes... has been for quite some time.
the phone goes both ways... i know.
and i call... and get nothing back.
i guess its too late now.
im ruining everything... right?
im distancing myself from everyone right?
nope... I dont have very many friends...
I never have had alot of them.
and moving... not getting to do what i wanted.
my family still bossing me around.
and my friends not talking to me anymore.
i dont see where i become to blame in that.
but i do... because i have him. my perfection.
im done writing now.
bye bye friends.		  
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07:41pm 10/07/2005
  its five months now
i am so in love.

:]
we went to the fair.
my parents sponcered the trip. haha

i love you daniel.		  
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12:24pm 28/06/2005
  this is what i do... when daniel is busy.

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12:08am 27/06/2005
 

the goodbyes just keep getting harder.
tonights goodnight... so hard.
how i just want to be with im all day everyday every second and NEVER let go.
we're in love... what else would you expect.

and marraige... ugh.
how much i want it.
how i want to just be done with college.
and get a great job.
so he can go to a university
and i can suport us for a while.

happily ever after... whats i have.
i love him so much.

i do....

there is no stopping us now....
its for forever....
no stopping love....
:]

 

i love you daniel.

  
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10:07pm 17/06/2005
  i got very hurt today.
but i dont want to post about it.
even tho i do... i dont.
cause i dont think it really matters.
daniel says she doesnt mean it.
and i dont think she does either.


going wedding dress shopping with cas tomorrow.
woo hoo for that!
haha. im so ready... shes so ready.

i still call her my bestfriend.
for the rest of my life i will.
even if she wont.
no matter how much time spent apart.
nothing changes it for me.
and now ive talked about what hurt me.
pooo.


im doing cosmetoligy now. finally.
sence ive declared that ive been doing that for what?..
a year now? haha well im doing it.
its part time right now.
but ill start fulltime in winter (Lord Willing)
its fun... its slow for me.
unlike casmonster. its fast....
shes all up there and doing stuff i want to do.
im jealous... haha... very.
im shampooing and spraying myself down with that stupid hose that gets out of my hand constantly...
and shes cutting and tinting and doing everything i want to do.
cas... you suck. haha jk. you know i love ya.
but... my little class is great.
i kinda dont want to leve them.
but there is no way in hell im going to wait 2 and a half years to be done.
anyway...

daniel and i...
are the happiest couple in the world.
our love... its unique.
i really dont believe it can be duplicated.
and it sadens me... but at the same time.
makes me happy to feel this way and no one else can.
he makes me feel beautiful no matter what.
no matter how much weight i gane. no matter how my hair looks.
if he thinks something could even slighly hurt my feelings...
hell appoligize for it right away.
he give me love i can bearly handle.
and he is truely... too good to me.
and its sad when other people dont see us together.
or everyone would know just how we are.
and how in love we are.
and how nothing in the world could change that.
:]
i love you daniel. with all my heart.

"you take my breathe away"

I am most defenitly in love.		  
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11:00pm 11/06/2005
 
mood: loved
I have a loving boyfriend who:

opens every door for me
my car down... when im getting in or out.
it doesnt matter where or when.
no matter what he is a gentelman.
he opens every door for me.
no matter where we are.
he will ever hold the door for 10 hours if there are more people comming.
he is the most generous man.
we give money to homeless people constantly.
he writes me songs and plays them for me.
he writes songs for anniversarys
he writes me songs if im sad.
he writes me songs just to make me happy.
he never treats me badly.
he can always make me smile.

it doesnt matter what it takes...
he always does anything to make me happy.

if that isnt the most loving boyfriend....
then I dont know what is.		  
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10:47am 05/06/2005
  i love daniel so much.
we spend the days together....
I am so happy.

i hung out with cas yesterday.
and babysat jordan. i think that was his name
he was really cute.
what a happy baby.
but ya... its good to see her.


I was weird yesterday.
daniel makes me happy.
all he has to do is hold me.
and everything is okay.
all my worries go away.
my live is perfect.
i love him

:] i love him so much.		  
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